Hello! I'm so excited to update my blog - this is the first moment I've had my hands free in a week and a half! My mom had a snow day today, so she's come over to fix Olivia and I some lunch. Olivia is asleep in her bouncy seat as I type this.
Where do I begin? I'm overwhelmed.
I am so in love with this baby, it's unbelievable. She's only been here for eleven days, and yet I can't imagine my life before her. I love to just stare at her! In fact, that got me in trouble for the first few nights because I'd lay awake and watch her breathing - and I didn't get any sleep at all. It took it's toll on me - and I'm starting to sleep now at night when she's sleeping. It sounds simple - the books all say to "sleep when your baby sleeps." But for me, it's been a challenge to learn. I've never known a love like this, and I felt like I had to stay awake in case anything happened to her, and I couldn't let myself fall asleep. I'm really learning to trust God right now - to trust Him to watch over her and protect her and calm my anxiety. I think it's something I'm going to be learning for the rest of my life! So this is what motherhood is!
Joel is an amazing father. I knew he would be good - but I didn't know he would be this GREAT. He's so calm with her - and talks so sweetly to her. I love to watch them together.
I promise to write more and post pictures, but for now, this is all I can do! I'm going to sneak in some lunch before Olivia wakes up and we start our whole feeding/changing/burping routine again!
Thank you for your prayers (I feel them!) and thank you for your sweet emails and comments. You bless me!